i suck!

i cant think anymore! i cant think anymore!! i cant think anymore!!!...='( i've tried my best to console her.. however i failed.. im sorry..i really am.. no words can describe how i feel now.. i cant afford to lose her but she's indifferent now... this will resort in separation.. i dont want that.. i never want.. oh god pls.. for the first time i plead to u.. i seek for ur guidance... help me save my relationship with her..='(
im in the wrong but i cant help it.. it was beyond my prediction.. i didnt planned tat all tis will happened.. u didnt give me chance.. i love u so much sayang...i dont tink u need me on this earth anymore... if u resort in separation.. i cant do anything.. i have to give in although i will suffer my entire life...='(
for the first time in my sec four life..i burst into tears.. not for joy but sorrow... i kept telling to myself that watever happens i shld not cry.. im a guy.. guys are strong and not born to be cry baby... but i cant help it.. the ego i've build inside has collapsed.. and i realised tat im not strong enough to endure if im losing someone special.. she's special to me.. but she dont understand tat.. ='( watever happens now,i should confront it as calm as possible.......

i miss the good old days... frm the first time we met till now.. whenever i miss or quarrel with u i will fly down to memory lane.. the days we had fun together..wonderful memories... i still remembered ur previous blog which was the mother-nature.blogspot.com... whenever i enter the website i felt tat i was back then.. in sec two... there was not much problem in getting to noe u... i didnt expect tat we will have problems in our relationship.. i agree tat tis is part and parcel in loving one another... we do have problems.. maybe ur not contented with me... but shldnt we give in.... maybe after this i'll live in my own fantasy forever..... goodbye='(