i suck!

i cant think anymore! i cant think anymore!! i cant think anymore!!!...='( i've tried my best to console her.. however i failed.. im sorry..i really am.. no words can describe how i feel now.. i cant afford to lose her but she's indifferent now... this will resort in separation.. i dont want that.. i never want.. oh god pls.. for the first time i plead to u.. i seek for ur guidance... help me save my relationship with her..='(
im in the wrong but i cant help it.. it was beyond my prediction.. i didnt planned tat all tis will happened.. u didnt give me chance.. i love u so much sayang...i dont tink u need me on this earth anymore... if u resort in separation.. i cant do anything.. i have to give in although i will suffer my entire life...='(
for the first time in my sec four life..i burst into tears.. not for joy but sorrow... i kept telling to myself that watever happens i shld not cry.. im a guy.. guys are strong and not born to be cry baby... but i cant help it.. the ego i've build inside has collapsed.. and i realised tat im not strong enough to endure if im losing someone special.. she's special to me.. but she dont understand tat.. ='( watever happens now,i should confront it as calm as possible.......

i miss the good old days... frm the first time we met till now.. whenever i miss or quarrel with u i will fly down to memory lane.. the days we had fun together..wonderful memories... i still remembered ur previous blog which was the mother-nature.blogspot.com... whenever i enter the website i felt tat i was back then.. in sec two... there was not much problem in getting to noe u... i didnt expect tat we will have problems in our relationship.. i agree tat tis is part and parcel in loving one another... we do have problems.. maybe ur not contented with me... but shldnt we give in.... maybe after this i'll live in my own fantasy forever..... goodbye='(

i miss u 6230i

F***! F***! F***!!! ='( yesterday was totally not my dae.. guess what.. a good news.. i've lost my beloved handphone='( i've tried my best not to lose it and i've been consistent throughout.. but somehow i've lost it.. from the hand of my fren.. i dont want to explain in details.. im pissed off!! let us give one minute silent to commemorate my beloved hp.. one min pls...


well den..lets set aside the sorrow.. im aware of something nowadeas.. i do still love her so much.. if tats not the fact y do i miss her damn much.. i dont noe abt her.. but i can feel her presence is drifting away from me..im helpless.. i dont wanna lose her.. never.. but if we aren't fated to be together... den i've to let it be.. she's the only one i love so much.. she's my real first love despite having steady back den.. she's my first and last till my last breath although we go separate ways during the our 'journey'.... tats all for now.. gdnite

melacca

melacca melacca melacca... i didnt expected this trip to turn up to be a memorable one.. the unforgetable parts of the days were the 'eating time!'..the food was appetizing,scrumptious,mouth watering,delicious, etc.. i really miss my hotel.. the food..the fun.. lots of things..

den we visited some museums..lots of wonderful exhibits..went shopping... mostly we spent our time shopping and eating..unfortunately theres always ups and downs...some activities we were not prepared and some spoilt our mood.. however.. the overall trip was enjoyable.. i really look forward to such trips.. anw not to be missed..im going terengganu this june..yay! it shld be a great trip too.. alright den.. goodnite everyone.. take care but dont take drugs! nites!